today dad’s car wheel was flat. i helped him change the wheel when i saw him struggling and getting breathless. sweat dripping down his bare chest, panting with strain on his face. he used to be a strong man. carrying heavy stuff, doing carpentry, lifting cargo….
im not all that close to my dad and we may have our differences, but…….. seeing that man i knew was physically capable become physically less capable shits me up. like crazy shits me up.
mom’s getting old too and is much less able than she was previously.
im feeling very lost with my future options. lost between choosing to live my life and living for parents. can there be a compromise between those?