and i dont like what im becoming.
so in all sense, being true to myself, i guess its ok if i defy and deny things that i feel can be defied and denied.
i want to be back with the students and spend more time helping them, guiding them, teaching them, developing them. and since i believe this is what teaching should be like, as long as i dont get to do this to my satisfaction, i guess i’ll never be happy.
how come others can handle both? i guess im just not as efficient as the rest.