it took me almost 1 yr to get over the loss of 3 colleagues from end 2008 to mid 2009. suffice to say, i dont deal very well with losses. but, ive grown to realise and understand that when someone makes a decision to leave, the decision is made. no one can stop them. if one day i decide to leave, nothing anyone says will keep me. as harsh as it may sound. the sad thing is, im actually starting to believe in what No 1 always says, “no one is indispensible”. thats true. a company cannot run if someone is indispensible. there always must be someone else who can do the job. if not you, there’s someone else. after KM left, i thought his legacy will remain forever. childish right? so when i asked the then sec 2s, whether they missed KM, they said, “why will we miss the DM?” and it occured to me that there are ppl who never got to experience what KM was really like. likewise, there will be ppl who will never get to know what someone is really like once she leaves. there will be ppl who will never get to experience her. there will be ppl who will never get to be mentored by her. there will be ppl who will never know she existed. to think that at the end of it, this is what everyone’s life becomes. a passing phase. at the end of the day, we are just one person who can be replaced.
i cried today. even in public. it pained me that much. and yet i understood that the decision was made. and nothing anyone says will matter much. shouldnt matter much anyway. because i might, one day, too. but, losing ppl is not something im good at. it is still sad.