one of the practices ive been upholding since 2002 was restricting the frequency of giving into instant noodle cravings. for 5 yrs, ive only been eating 1 pack of instant noodles every 6 mths. you dont need to know why..
might i confess that the whole plan flopped this yr. the canteen closes by 3. and i usually only finish class at 3/4… that leaves me hungry since morning. and i turned to instant noodles. i dont eat it on an everyday basis. usually happens like biweekly or once a mth.
and then you realise, that you’ve just been holding on to something for so long. you’d want to keep going cos it makes you proud that you’ve managed to stay away from instant noodles.
now the plan has flopped…. i had instant noodles on tues. after i ate lunch. 1 hr later. i just wanted the salt. i did feel guilty.
im disappointed that a good practice ive been keeping for 5 yrs failed this yr. and when it failed the first time round, i totally failed. “the canteen is closed”, “i didnt have breakfast”, “too tired to walk out to buy food”. its all excuses. its not as if instant noodles were absolutely unavoidable during those instances i took it. and generally, excuses lead you to the pithole.
i dont know whats the point of this post. i actually have alot of things i want to reflect on. but its not happening now. but what i do realise is this.
when you do give up, you might do things that is contrary to what you really want. and that will hurt you.
as easy as it is to give up, it speaks nothing of the person’s resolve to get up and make a change.
you just got to keep fighting….