Author Archives: misspegasus
so many things i want to say, but they remain as voices in my head.
most of the times, im not even able to form full sentences to write abt them. they are like phantom thoughts. cant see them, but they are there, weighing me down.
staring at this empty white space when im supposed to be marking.
still dont know what to write.
oh well…………. im supposed to feel blessed that im still alive and kicking right. :D
everyday feels heavy. the place i go back to is a house, not a home. is it unfilial of me to want to leave everything behind and go somewhere else, start my own life? to not have to think about it because it is not something i can fix anymore………?
i might feel different if i knew this to be true, but, right now i think i might agree with the girl. it might be liberating. when the short time forces you to choose what matters in life and to pursue it. by then, maybe the time is really too short.
spending quality time with the ppl you love. just spending every moment with them, to keep as many memories as possible.
i think i want to spend my time alone by the beach watching the sunset on my last few nights. the waves calm me down. and it will be a peaceful way to go
life is so fragile. i dont even know if i’ll wake up tmr. or if i’ll be alive to see the next sunset. i dont know if im ready to leave the world yet. i still have a few things to do…..
i think the picture says it all. i dont particularly feel like adding to this picture.
it’ll be nice to have something to look forward to coming home, except that, all my options have ceased to exist.
it would be nice to come home and see the person i’d like to see, but that cant happen.
right now, i feel like im floating around, and am desperately trying to ‘find myself’.
i want to be in a job that gives me time to do something other than work all waking hours.
i want to be in a home and not a house.
i want to live in a place where i dont have to hear abt problems everyday.
i want many things. but i suppose i should be grateful that i have all the things i need. air, water, food and a roof over my head. it’s all a good like anyway. whatever happens happens… i dont dare to have expectations because expectations are accompanied by disappoinments. *bleargh*